I have been thinking lately, and trust me I have had a lot of time to think.
Thinking from the time I started writing to you, ’til now, there has been so much growth and I have learnt a lot about myself and about life in general. Writing to you has helped me. Granted I was not very consistent but I always had little notes for you. Maybe when we see each other I can show them to you.
I cannot express into words how grateful I am. I did not realise how much healing I was receiving from this. Thank you for allowing me to do this.
However, it is time to say goodbye. I think that our friendship can continue to grow away from here. I am excited for that as well. You see, as I said that I am now taking a different journey that I am not too sure where it will lead and I am excited for it but I think this part of the journey I will take with someone that I need healing from still. Hopefully, it will improve how I see him and myself of course, but also how I see what we had and one day we can be friends again, like me and you are.
See you soon Kevin x
I have contemplated for weeks and weeks about this. I was mainly held back because I was worried about what you will think. However, I have come to see that this is not about you but rather about me. I have come to accept that the closure I need from you I shall never get. Just like it was with Kevin.
You once told me that you are dreading the day I will come to resent you, although I do not think I trust much of what you said to me, but if you meant it… well, I loved you. A lot! And that is why I know I can never resent you, that plus you are actually a good person, aside from everything. However, lately I have found myself walking around with negativity. Granted it is not all on you, but you are definitely a trigger. I have separated from friends because of you and I am tired of you having that power over me.
You know I love to confront things head on and knowing that calling you and texting you will not do the trick, I have decided to write to you. Something you did not know about me, I love to write. When I gave you that letter (you probably threw it away), I told you it helps me address my feelings and is the best way to express myself. So here goes.
I would love to do this with you. For me and for our friendship. I know this will not necessarily make you happy, Mr. Secrets and Private life but like I said, for the first time since we met, I am putting myself first.
Welcome to the journey friend.
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